Its been a long time, when I didn’t post anything in this blog. The situation is really quite and nothing I can say. But today, maybe I will write something in charge of the emptiness of time.

Time has changed us, make us more mature, make us more busy. We live in the same time zone but what I feel, you and I live in the different time zone. When I online, u dont, vis versa.

I know lots of work make us tired but what i didnt expect is lots of work make a long distance for us. We talk but it not look like that we really talk. There is no absence in our convo but I feel more absence in our connection. Long chat no more, there’s only the short one and yeah…just small talk that didn’t mean a lot. What do you feel about our convo, a routine huh? Because for me its sound like that. We don’t want to disconnected but when we do it, it doesn’t sound natural.

I know quarantine make us bored in home? Workplace? Yeah, you named it. Quarantine short our funny story. What I mean is.. there is nothing that we can tell in this mean time. The topic is boring, coronavirus’ threat seems never ending, sounds right? It limits every aspect in our life. Forces us to stay at home and maybe create more hard choices in life.

But time is never stop. Still running like a theft. Leave people who are not ready for the change. Yeah. Bad quality in a bad time.

I don’t blame you, I don’t blame your bustle. We grow in different aspect and I accept it. I try to understand you and the situation but one thing that I cannot understand, why we feel very distant? I just don’t understand about the mistake, the concept, and the weirdness in this way but thats what I feel.

At first, routinity is shit! The moment when  we rarely talk really hit me so much. Maybe you don’t know or maybe you know but you can’t do anything. It’s just condition that separate us naturally and we feel like no power to handle that, yeah I know. I thought about those probability. So here I am, try to understand and make myself more busy to not thinking about you in a negative way. I feel like…the reason why I was totally shaken when you weren’t around is… I dont have any work/jobs that can make me as busy as you. That’s it. You adopt a new lifestyle but I…don’t. I’m just an ordinary person that equal with unemployee for a couple of time. I feel like you already become adult and I just a little kid😂. But it didn’t bother me so much because in the end I choose to ignore about those parable. You know I’m not a caring person, I just people who don’t give a f*ck with anything(sorry its a little bit harsh).

But like I have said before, I feel distance. It’s not about place but emotionally. And I just don’t know how to handle this. Honestly, I don’t want to burden you by telling this but yeah…this what I feel for this period time. I’m sorry if it bothers you but this long paragraph only for me to share what’s in my mind.

If you read this, don’t feel guilty. Please take it as a moment to sharing. Thank you